[RadCast] Micah 6:1-4

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Confidence = Belief + Humility – Psalm 27:13 [RadCast]

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Light, as if it’s already here (Isaiah 9:2) [RadCast]

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Assistant or Lord? Matthew 14:13-21 [RadCast]

The disciples wanted Jesus to help them with their solution.  Jesus wanted everything the disciples had.  The solution is surrender, not just making things a little better.

 

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Our prayer requests are really just plan B to God’s plan A [RadCast]

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Resolutions

This year, I resolve to be sure to keep my resolutions.  So far it’s going pretty good.  I ate a BUNCH of Monkey Bread and topped it off with some Asian Fusion, delivered to our house and so devious in its appearance of healthy vegetables and rice that I easily ate two servings or more — and that was within the span of 4 hours, just last Sunday.

Whoever invented Monkey Bread, my hats off.  My belt, too, because waist diameter.  Or is it circumference?  Right, right: circumference is pi times diameter.

Monkey Bread pie?  With its cinnamon goodness and buttery biscuity greatness… can it be franchised to the pie division?  That’s like asking if you can add filling to a donut.  The answer is what it has always been and always will be: yes.  Resounding yes.  Regrets are for those who regret.  So it goes.

Yeah, but seriously.  It’s going pretty well.  The weight loss thing, I mean. I’ve found that if I drink copious amounts of water, my stomach gets confused and thinks it’s full, like when you hide a tennis ball under a blanket and the dog is like waaait… and then moves on to wild barking at the leaf blowing across the lawn.  My stomach is that dog.

My sister and her husband have a dog that will eat whatever it sees.  It doesn’t even need to be food per se.  My stomach is their dog.  Because, friend, no matter how we stir it, marshmallow cream is not food.  It’s a byproduct of marshmallow, which is also not food.  If your food has an R-factor, it’s not food.  It’s insulation.

I didn’t mean to eat the marshmallow cream.  It was mixed into some Amish Peanut Butter that I bought for the assumed organic and earthy goodness.  A close look at the ingredients shows that it includes insulation.  I may throw it away.  I may add it to my toast.  It’s so creamy.

Oh, so creamy.

We make our decisions when we’re strong so that we do the right thing when we’re weak.  After all this talk, I’m ready to drink some water. A gallon should do the trick.

 

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Light, Salvation, Stronghold – Psalm 27:1 [RadCast]

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New Year’s Day (Observed)

Two items of note:

1) Today is New Year’s Day [Observed]

2) Our Atomic Clock is suddenly 10 minutes slow

Because New Year’s Day fell on a Sunday, which we all agree isn’t a real day, its observance was transferred to the closest legitimate day, which, in this case, is Monday.  Sure, Sunday is a day, and it’s even the Lord’s Day, but then again they all are, right?  If God were only allowed to own one day of the week, He’s only a mid-level manager… born in a low-level manger (Christmas ba-doom jinglebells.)

The illegitimacy of Sunday is reinforced by Daylight Savings Time [Observed] which always falls on a Sunday, since that day doesn’t really exist in the chronoverse.  Sunday is time’s punching bag.

Now that I think about it, our trusty Atomic Clock, which receives its time from space (cue: David Bowie tribute), was off by 10 minutes on Sunday morning.  Where do 10 minutes go?  Are they Left Behind (cue: Kirk Cameron reference) in 2016?  Of all the clocks in our home, from oven to basement, from alarm clock to forgotten watch whose 1:00 AM alarm cannot be disabled, it is our bathroom clock that we most rely on as the Big Ben (cue: overt London clipart in Monty Python style.)  For SpaceClock to be wrong, even by a second and certainly by 600 of them (seconds, I mean,) is torturous to my sense of time elasticity.

I woke up Sunday after a good long sleep that stretched from about 9:30pm to 5am, which means I totally slept through the New Year’s ball drop.  One might say I dropped the ball on observing the New Year, but they shouldn’t.  I wasn’t sure it was 2017 until I checked my phone.

Thankfully, we’ve been given this fine Monday to let this all sink in.  Happy New Year!

 

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This Bible Verse Really Bothers Me (on Growth)

Just One Verse (J1V): Luke 2:52

“And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and man.”  

This verse bothers me because I hold an ideal of Jesus where He’s the eternal, uncreated, and perfect One.  Saying that He grew suggests that He had moments of imperfection, or, at least, incompleteness.  A seemingly incomplete Jesus does not fit in my box, and that really bugs me.  “Ah,” you say, “but that was when Jesus was only 12 years old, and He needed to grow in maturity and become a man,” to which I say “you’re projecting your youthful foolishness on the Messiah, and I don’t like it, not one bit.”   I’m still not sure which of us is truly being naive.

As a Pastor, I often remind the people I serve that God wanted to create us, which is completely different from God needing to create us.  Want and need are two different motivators.  I need to eat in order to stay alive and relatively healthy.  My body is counting on me doing the work of selecting, preparing, serving, and chewing, and in return I get to stay alive and run and go bowling.  This is something I need to do because my body needs to convert nutrition into fuel.  I need food to stay alive, but I want one of those Reese’s Peanut Butter things, gargantuan and slovenly, two “servings” in one sitting (who eats only half at a time?)   Love it as I do, the ministry of peanut butter plus chocolate isn’t a good exclusive meal, lest I want to never leave home.  To put it plainly: there would be a revolt.  Need and want are different.  Need is necessity, want is desire.  Need is non-negotiable, want is take-it-or-leave-it and it’ll work either way.  In other words, God was complete before our creation and will always be complete, regardless of our relationship with Him.  The fact that He wants us to exist and wants us to know Him is nothing short of a miracle, and I’m not talking about the magical combination of extruded  peanut butter and ill-gained chocolate.

If anyone comes along and says that God was lonely, and that’s why He created us, then politely offer them a cookie but don’t listen too closely.  To suggest that God was incomplete until He made us says that He’s not God and that we’ve wasted our time worshipping a codependent god which we’ve created in our own graven image.  God saved me, not because He needed to but because He wants (present tense) to do so.  This is what make the gospel amazing.  He has nothing to gain, yet, without His grace, we have everything to lose.

But anyway, back to the troublesome verse in Luke.  The bible can be such an incessant, mysterious troublemaker that ends up reading us as we’re reading it, since the Word is living and active, not dead like every other kind of medium.  In the 1984 movie Ghostbusters, Dr. Egon Spangler plainly said that “print is dead” as he’s connecting a dot-matrix printer to the receptionist’s computer.  The words of scripture may be on a screen or bound in a book, but these words are different than any other because 1) the author bothers us with things and 2) it reads us because it is actually a He and His name is Jesus.

Outstanding, this canon of ours.  They should put it in hotel nightstands and make it readily available in hundreds of translations, sweepable by the fingertips of billions of people around the globe who are looking for answers to the deepest mysteries of life and they address the echo chamber of the soul.   

Or, we could binge Netflix.

Anyway, Luke 2:52 is a troublesome verse because it challenges our assumptions and preoccupations with Jesus, namely that He’s always been perfect.  He has been, He will be, He was, He is, yet… He grew.  The unchanging One who changes us… changed.  Can you grow without changing?  Impossible!   When I was in Kindergarten, I spent most of the academic year writing my name wrong.  The teacher wanted me to write it a certain way, and I did it my way (to quote Sinatra.)  Mrs. Downing, 103 years young, would write “Adam” on the top line and ask me to write it in three spots below: here, here, and here.  Little red ink asterisks on each line.  And, like the daily clockwork of everything else in public school, I sat at my table and wrote ADAM on the first line, ADAM on the second line, and ADAM on the third line.  Mrs. Downing looked at the paper and said it was wrong and that we’d try tomorrow.  It wasn’t until spring of my Kindergarten career that I properly wrote “Adam” — observing the proper distinction between upper and lower case letters — that I got my golden star.  She hugged and kissed me, Mrs. Downing did, and I felt accomplished and frustrated.  I felt accomplished because I finally made her happy instead of more upset and wrinkled.  I felt frustrated because she never told me that was the problem and instead left it to my own discovery.  Whether or not that was the best teaching method is a question I stopped asking years ago.  I can now say that I learned two things that day: first, how to write my name without the caps lock, and second, how self discovery is an excellent mode of learning.  All in all, I think she did the right thing, and I’m better for it because it was an epiphany that I experienced on my own, and with a 7 month build up, it was quite a eureka moment for me.

If we’re reading Luke 2:52, do we rightly assume that Jesus had eureka moments?  How much did He know from day one?  If Jesus is and always has been perfect, He must’ve known everything, right?  And what a pesky student He must’ve been, since every time the Rabbi made a declarative statement, Jesus could pipe up with a jovial Yep, I know!  Already knew that.  I’m the Messiah, and you’re thinking about taking early retirement right now! 

That’s a frightening thought.  Can you imagine being Jesus’ teacher?  Or how about His parents?

I have the privilege of raising three kids, and I must say that being a dad is one of the best things to ever happen to me.  I revel in it, amazed at how much our children can absorb, how much more articulate and aware they are becoming, and how quickly they’re growing up.  I like to pick up our 11 year old and toss him around (in a good, loving dad, wrestling in the living room kind of way) as I remember that he once fit on my arm span between the middle of my hand and my elbow.  The truth is that he’ll be as big as me, if not bigger, and my days of beating him in sock wrestling championship or even a wry game of Connect Four are numbered.  It’s such a privilege to watch our kids grow up, and the lessons I’ve learned about how God the Father views us are ever flowing and often overwhelming.  Occasionally I’ll catch a whisper that says “I love you like that, but even more” and it moves me.

But here’s what bothers me about this verse (I haven’t forgotten about it, don’t worry.)  It says that Jesus grew in wisdom and in stature.  Mary and Joseph watched this happen just as my wife and I watch our kids grow up.  And, though I’d rarely even say this out loud, our kids aren’t perfect.  And I back that statement up with by saying that they get their imperfection from their parents.  It’s strange, however, to think of Jesus being an incomplete child, yet unfinished and proving it by His growth.  How could perfection, clothed in human form, be imperfect?

It bothered me enough to start digging.  As it turns out, the original Greek sheds some light on this for us.  For example, the word translated grew is a Greek word that sounds kinda like prokopto, which means, among other things, “to lengthen by hammering, as a smith forges metals.”  It’s a word that denotes the unfolding of an existing material, not the changing of material.  Did Jesus grow?  Maybe a better way of saying it is that Jesus expanded as planned.  Perhaps growing has less to do with changing who/what we are and more to do with realizing what’s already in there.  I know that sounds very new-age, like the first rung on the Self-Actualization stepladder, but think about this for a second.  Jesus grew by becoming who He was destined to be, and what He was destined to be is what He already was.  It’s just that He’s wearing flesh now.  Flesh grows, per the instruction of DNA.  Wisdom grows, per the instruction of the Holy Spirit to the human soul.

Jesus models for us what it is to be hammered out to reach our God-given potential.  He doesn’t just model it or teach it, He endures it.  Jesus put up with the long, arduous process of growth, not because He had to but because He wanted to.  His atonement would be incomplete if He wasn’t “tempted in every way, yet remained without sin.”  Jesus grew up, both physically and spiritually, all while retaining His full divinity.  Somehow who He is expanded fully into His humanity, and, therefore, into our humanity.  Without a doubt, this blows my mind.

There is something in our created image that longs for growth.  We are born restless, and we don’t find peace until we find our Creator, who is God, brought to hopeful possibility by the life, death, and resurrection of Christ, who is the perfect One who yet grew while on earth.  And now that I’ve arrived here, this little troublesome verse needles me less.  I’m still restless.  Why?

Because I want to grow.  I want to be strong in body, in mind, and in soul.  Jesus grew.  How’d He do it?  That’s what I’d like to know.  How about you?

We read that Jesus grew in wisdom.  He was able to make knowledge practical and applicable to everyday life.  He didn’t cheat.  Jesus got wisdom the same way you and I can: through paying attention throughout His earthly experience, all while listening closely to His Father.  Paying attention to the crossroads between life and God’s Kingdom work.  This is how we grow in wisdom, just as Jesus did.

We read that Jesus grew in stature.  Nothing replaces the passing of time to make sure the concrete cures into the right shape and function.  The fact that Jesus didn’t push the boundaries, itching to start His ministry at the age of 15 or 21 but instead waiting until age 30, tells me that I need to proceed at the right time in the wise way, which is made most clear by the direction of God the Father.  Along the way, it’s important that I make sure my stature stays healthy — that is, my physical body — so that I can capably do the will of the Father in the limited time I have here.

We read that Jesus grew in favor with God.  What else could this mean than exactly what it says?  The Messiah didn’t take His position for granted.  Instead, He pursued the Heavenly Father in the same way you and I should (and usually don’t — personal confession.)  Jesus made sure that His first and foremost priority was seeking God.  From at least age 12 to age 30, Jesus grew in His relationship with the Father.  This means that He spent 18 years practicing some kind of spiritual discipline, the fruit of which didn’t become readily apparent to the world until His final days on earth.  So much for expecting spiritual fireworks after every quiet time!

We read that Jesus grew in favor with people.  Aren’t you glad that the Incarnate One took His Incarnation seriously enough to be approachable and likable?  People were drawn to Jesus because He was authentic, wise, joyful, Holy, yet fully present.  I’d like to think He pulled His fair share of pranks, told hilarious jokes without using the phrase knock, knock, and somehow managed to get invited to every party on the block.  This doesn’t come from being pious and unapproachable.  He took His connection with humans seriously enough to grow those relationships organically.

I think I know the real reason this verse bothers me.  Because I see that it’s a model for spiritual formation, which is the ongoing process of change and growth into the likeness of Jesus Christ.  Jesus grew and so should I.  Now to put this in my New Year’s Resolution pipe and smoke it.  What a timely reminder of Truth, here on this New Year’s eve eve eve.   It bothers me because I know God is speaking to me about this, and it won’t be easy.  Growth never is. 

Just ask Jesus.  He knows.

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A Dad, trying to understand Star Wars

I was raised on a steady diet of Star Trek reruns.  Late night, early morning, within the haunts of syndication, the crew of the Enterprise and I fearlessly coexisted, encountering one menacing adventure after another.  For the intrepid crew, it was the Trouble with Tribbles. For me, it was Trouble with Tater Tots, which served as the cornerstone for my school lunch from 4th grade on and which demanded an inordinate amount of ketchup that couldn’t emerge from those little packets fast enough.  But Captain Kirk handled it, and so did I, yet it was truly me doing my own stunts.  The whole time!

Now that I’m happily married and happily parenting, I encounter a new adventure that my Trekkian upbringing didn’t prepare me for: Star Wars.  I find myself in a family of Star Wars super fans, of which I am the uninitiated newbie who has been put in charge of carrying everyone else’s coats.  Because of how my wife was raised, she wife can paint a vivid story arc, punctuated by historical references and character developments that (I assume) are true to the SW canon.  Our sons can do the same, maneuvering effortlessly through all the references to planets, spaceships, and the subtle differences between a StormTrooper and a SnowTrooper.  As it turns out, it’s not that one kind wears thermal underwear.

And this is just one example of many unwelcome questions that I posed during an intense tutoring session following our family’s first screening of Rogue One.  Presented in stunning IMAX, we were all entertained and enthralled, albeit for different reasons.  For my wife and our sons, it was the completion of plot holes, pre-hsitoric elements that magically tie in to the grand narrative, and all the classic characters that they’ve come to anticipate.  For me, it was a mix of 3D wow and 3D confusion.  I can honestly say I got about 20% of it.  Maybe 25%.

After the floating credits floated away, we left some of our IMAX glasses behind and caught a very late dinner at one of the few restaurants in the city that were still open.  There, at the table in the corner, the four of us ate as we compared notes.  And I  started asking more questions.  Questions like: what’s the deal with people not being able to breathe?  Is that guy with the oxygen mask an early Darth Vader?  And that’s when the thrashing began.  My first job was to convince them that I was serious and that I really am that thick.  It got better after that.

In my defense, we all agree that Darth Vader is the one with a breathing issue, right?  So imagine my confusion when this movie had a different guy who breathes with a thing!  And why did they call the robotic moon a DeathStar — kinda sounds like a bad concept car model.  Ralph Nader would have a field day with this one!  But no, this is a planet they built to…what?… kill other planets?  Why?  What kind of infrastructure supports such complex systems?  And who put these people in charge, anyway, and what’s motivating them?

Thankfully my wife and our older son are very encouraging, answering my inane questions with great skill.  Master teachers, both of them, with the youngest offering color commentary that often brought greater clarity.  When I asked “who’s paying for all this?  Construction of the Death Star?  Weapons?    I mean, the overhead for staffing alone must be astronomical!” our younger son said “George Lucas is paying for this, Dad.  All of it.”

At this point, I was asking why Darth Vader seems to choke his subordinates instead of encouraging them.

At this point, I was asking why Darth Vader always chokes his subordinates instead of encouraging them.

What can I say: I wasn’t raised on this.  I have one space sci-fi category, and it involves transporters, photon torpedos, vulcans and balding captains.  In my limited mind, everything has to go through StarFleet.  I realized halfway through the movie, as I was putting my Star Wars experience through a Star Trek lens, that there’s a marked difference between the two that I hadn’t seen before.  I’m sure others have, but it was an epiphany of sorts for me.  And it goes like this:

In Trek, the good guys are the organization — the “military” of sorts — the government — the UN.  Etc.  We root for these guys and roll our intergalactic eyes at the rebel Klingons, the fools.

In Wars, the good guys are the rebels and the bad guys are the ones with an Org chart.  We hiss at the government/organization and cheer for the ones who don’t wear uniforms.

So then I started thinking… what does this tell me about my preferences?  That I like rules and dislike rebellion?  That I’m not a fighter and that I value order over doing the right thing?  That I maybe should’ve spent less time rewatching the one about the Whales and instead given Return of the Jedi a shot?

Who knows.  I sit here, pondering in these final days of December, the cold of winter pushing into our lives, and I wonder: should I spend the next calendar year learning everything I can about Star Wars?   Could I become a superfan?  And would this help me bond better with the rest of my family?  Perhaps.  But that sounds like a lot of work.  Then again, it could be worth it.  I’ll think more and get back to you.  I will especially enjoy the teaching of the wise one, our an 11 year old that has the patience of a monk as he teaches me what truly is — whatever that may be.

Until then, my precious: beam up the force, check out the tardis, and don’t trip over the horcruxes.

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